I thought I was strong enough. I promised myself that I wasn’t cry over this situation anymore, that I had to be strong for our family, especially grandma. Turns out, you could only lie to yourself for so long. I don’t believe I can do this anymore. Everything reminds me of you; the weather, food, scents, clothing brands. Hell, I can’t even log onto facebook or myspace anymore without feeling depressed.  You were always there for me when I was falling into rock bottom, but who’s going to catch me now? I would give anything to hear half your breath, even if it’s you calling me ”A Little Bit” that lame nickname that I despise. It frustrates me that why you, the kindest & most pacient, out of everyone? My mind still can’t comprehend that I’m never going to see that smile or get one of those rare warm hugs again. I really just don’t understand why and I don’t want to understand.